res 09

OH MY. 2009 is gonna end in just a few hours! and a new year is about to begin. Time surely flies.


Well, let's evaluate my resolution for this year.

1) be a better person (..not sure)
2) whine less (failed.)
3) insult less (not sure as well. LOL)
4) money spent less (...uhm...)
5) be more punctual (was i?)
6) go to church more often (...i think so.)
7) be a happier person overall/learn to appreciate (i think i failed.)
8) study very very hard for U6/get better results than last year (yay passed!)
9) do my school homework this year (define "do".)
10) exercise more (failed miserably)
11) go to KL after stpm. (YAY PASSED.)

LOL this is embarrassing.

PLEASEEEEEE

PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE OH PLEASEEEEE GIVE ME THAT JOB!



GOD YOU HAVE TO HELP ME! I REALLY WANT THAT JOB!!!



I need a divine intervention. Help from God. A miracle from God. actually 2 miracles from God.



OH I AM BEGGING YOU!!! YES I AM THIS DESPERATE

sometimes,

you just wish you don't have to keep everything to yourself


you just wish for a helping hand and not have to solve every single problem yourself.








sometimes, you just wish for someone you can talk to all the time without worrying you'll scare/annoy that person off.

Sadly, some wishes will never be granted. 

Merry Christmas

Christmas is not about..

santa claus (never was),
presents,
christmas deco,
snow,
family gathering,
partying,
getting drunk(most stupid thing a person can do during the christmas season. complete imbeciles. pft)

but instead. i believe that christmas is..

the day where God sent His beloved Son into the world.

the day where Christ was born.

the day which made all the difference. where our future will never be the same again because of this day.

the day filled with joy, love, hope and peace.

=D a very happy christmas to all.

the best belated-birthday party. ever.

I was forced to wear the..crown. :(

 

Cheery!

Bryan and Ian!

many thanks to the 3. =) you all are the best.

for the record, I still think i look kinda retarded wearing that crown. =(

=D

Back from KL. a wonderful trip. except for the singapore part tho. too crowded. too many people on such a small island. I was worried the island was gonna sink any moments. hehehehe


Anyway, pictures up..uhm..soon. promise. eventually. =)



I still cant help but keep wondering if i have to study every other minute. It's like, I keep having this autonomic reflex to study or do homework or stuffs like that. As if I've got exam tomorrow since tomorrow is monday. I keep forgetting that it's holidays already. LOL too used to form 6 i guess.



anyway, how is my new found freedom? awesome. amazing. sweeter than anything. I love holidays. No matter how bored people keep telling me that it'll be, I'll still love the holidays. Uh-may-zing.

=)

after almost 2 years,

more than 600 days,

4 subjects,

many books,

thousand of pages,

and many trees cut down after =D

and 7 exams later,...

It is done. This is epic. this feels surreal.

I made it. We all did. =) this is a new beginning.

=)

I cannot believe it. This feels so surreal.



VERY very surreal.


Later on, I'll be having my PA paper 1.



Tomorrow I'll be having my chemistry paper 1, which is also my last paper.

 Which marks the end of form 6.

It feels like I have finally finish this journey. This battle. I've survived through the battle.

The feeling of accomplishment, it's unexplainable.

I feel like I've accomplished something very very big. =)

It has been a very very long journey.

I've reached my destination.

I have to say, it has been a very interesting journey. 2 years of intense rollercoaster ride. There were plenty of difficult times, but i have to admit, there were some amazing times as well.

Great teachers, great schoolmates, great friends who supported me. I cant help but feel blessed instead of feeling tired.

After all of this, do I regret going to form 6? I'll have to say no. I do not regret. Because there isn't anything to regret about. Even though I chose the road less taken, but I thought it was worthwhile. This experience has been very interesting. I've met some of the greatest teachers in my school, met some very interesting schoolmates and learned plenty valuable of lesson throughout this experience.

and i cant help but feel rather...smart =P hahaa

All in all, it has been a great experience. I would not have missed it for the world.

p/s: I thank my friends who have been great support throughout these times, even if I was a big whiny baby. The littlest support and motivation that you all have given me, I truly thank you all. No matter if it was a paragraph full of inspirational quotes or just a short "you can do it", I appreciate it. =) you know who you are.

 pp/s: I do believe i deserve a little break by indulging myself in some retail therapy after all of this dontcha think XD

why?

Why does it seems like my problem just never ends?


This never ending problems. The mounting amount of problems, it's so overwhelming.

Problems after problems.


I just wish I can run away to a place where no one can find me. Just for a week. so that i can rest..

and you're still putting on a happy face.

still trying to help others with their problems

when quite frankly, you have your own problem to solve.

=\

another case of insomnia?


I've been getting sleepless nights this entire week. Even if i do get some sleep it's not all great. I'll wake up like, every 30 minutes or something.


bah. too much stuff in my mind i guess.



I'll just spend this time studying my biology.

rahhhhhhhhhhhhhh

1) It took me 1 hour to finally be able to sign into my facebook account
2) ..and 30 minutes of non-stop attempt of signing into msn messenger.


streamyx. seriously?



i am not happy. not happy at all. if another streamyx technician asks me to check my IP and DNS thingy one more time i am gonna scream and yell profanities to him like there's no tomorrow which can put the person with the worst potty mouth to shame.

ahhaha jokes. please dont take me too seriously now. i think i am slightly insane.

But the complaints above are real! just the profanity part is..uhm..ahh nevermind.
 

anyway, on the other note..

I am leading another p&w session this sunday! after such a long time, I am starting to get worried. I mean, we are lacking musicians this week so I've decided since we've only got pianist, drummer and guitars (acoustic and bass), we might as well just do an acoustic session right? something very laid back and not very rockish. that oughta be interesting.

the problem is,
I have not sung for such a long time.




I tried practicing, and i realized i sounded like a teenage wailing banshee.


gulp.

hmm

yesterday marks the day where I'll never have to study through my Form 6 Mathematics anymore.


As i was putting away the book, I suddenly felt...


..reluctant..



I know i know. I was begging for it to be done before this. But now, after 2 years, I had no idea that it had became a part of my life. I've become so attached to it that, when I put it away, I feel like I'm shutting out a part of my life.

There's this feeling of voidness in my head. Like, something is missing.
My teachers were right. We will be too attached to all of these.

As much as I've hated maths, I've become used to the workload i guess.

My heart is reluctant to let it go.

...

toughest Maths T2 paper that I have ever done.

ughh. frustrated.




very upset now. I just hope that doesn't ruin my chances of getting a scholarship.




it feels like all the hard work that i've put into it has been wasted.