OH NO!

I HAVE BEEN ATTACKED BY THE HALLYU!!



INSANELY OBSESSED WITH THIS SONG!

btw do you all think this song sounds almost like Lady Gaga's Telephone? Just saying tho. LOL still, addicted addicted.

hurt.

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New Year Resolution.

I CANNOT BELIEVE I TOTALLY FORGOT TO MAKE A NEW YEAR RESOLUTION LAST YEAR!

I was looking through my last year's post and I'd realised that I did not make any resolution last year! How pathetic! Failure! No goals accomplished! 

But anyway even though there were no resolution but I still think 2010 has been a fruitful year.

SO! This time I do remember to make my resolution! hahaa

2011 resolution

1) Pass my first year uni with flying colours

2) Be physically healthier, fitter, exercise more. (gonna get that washboard abs =D)

3) Learn to be thrifty

4) To be a better person, stop complaining, start appreciating. Argue less.


and just something for everyone in the coming year,
1) Better economy for the country
2) better financial stability for everyone
3) World peace, no war, 

What's your resolution? =)

NYE

WOW seriously cannot believe how time flies! It's officially NYE people!! 

Ahh, 2010 has been a crazy crazy year. Let's see what amazing things have happened this year..


1) Started off brilliantly with the release of my STPM results. 3As! Happiest day of this year. =D


2) Got a job offer to teach in SMK Methodist. Gotta say this must've been the best experience of my entire life. Bittersweet. Miss the students, miss some of my colleagues, but I do not miss the workload. haha!!

Candid shot by my students. LOL

Me with my students!

My surprise farewell party!

3) Had the privilege to volunteer in a hospital for a week! That was a very interesting experience. 

 

4) Lea and adrian during summer breaks. Yeap the lots came back again! Always the happiest time. Whenever I'm bored or they are bored I'll always be at their place hanging around.

Sushi time!

No comment.


Typical tea time!

5) Then it was off to Beijing! Was definitely a great trip. Had lots of fun with my family, and meeting new people as well! 

Fun with sis!

Fun in China!

Well overall this year was definitely another great year! And I'm sure next year is gonna be even better, and I hope it's the same for everyone as well! =D

Helpless..

"   Please be informed that he just have to leave the situation as it is until the JPA office send us the list of JPA qualifying students."

This is why i feel so helpless right now. My ed consultant just helped me emailed a Monash representative and this was what I've got. 

I handed in my acceptance form at the beginning of the month and all I wanted was a clarification on whether they have received my acceptance form. This is because JPA asked me not to pay any of the fees first so that there will not be any double pay cases later. But then Monash insisted that in order for me to accept this offer, I must pay an initial fee equivalent to the tuition fee for a semester.

Hence, I gave my ed. consultant a call this morning, telling her of the situation. She understands, and she said she'll help me settle it immediately. So she sent them an email and this was the reply she got from them. This made me really restless. Yes I do worry alot. Now I am worried. What if things go wrong. This is like, my last and only chance of going into university. I am not going to ruin it.


I really need a miracle.

Things I Wanna Do When I'm In KL.

So I've been doing these mental checklist on what would be the things I really would like to do when I start my studies in KL. Of course, my priority would still be studying, but these are just the other things I would do during my past time/holidays.


I would like:-
a) to visit Putrajaya. I've heard it's one of the most beautiful city in the entire Malaysia.
b) to attend a performance by the Malaysian Philharmonic Orchestra.
c) to go and have drinks with my friends at Skybar. (For more info: Click here, and here)
d) to have a trip with my friends to Genting
e) to have a trip to Pulau Langkawi
f) to rent a BMW or a Mercedes and drive around town the entire day
g) to attempt a fine dining experience during the Malaysian International Gourmet Festival
h) to have a gym membership
*edited*
i) to visit Penang (and try out all the food!)


and some things which I really wish I can do
i) to never fail any of my exams
j) to never get robbed.
HAHAH!


Will update the list when I think of more! LOL

dear you,

Anyone who knows me should know that I rarely listen to songs in which, I'll have a hard time understanding the lyrics.


..and that includes mandarin songs. 


So you'll never see me listening to raps by Jay Chou(God knows what is he talking about) or some songs about "sorry" by SuperJunior. 
And I can honestly say I'd never listened to more than 5 Japanese songs before. The only Japanese song that I'd listened to the most would be Doraemon's theme song (tottemo daisuki~)


But once in a while you come across some songs, that even though you dont quite understand what are they singing, but the way they sing it shows how meaningful the song is. 


And mind you, those songs are really good. 


I don't remember if I've ever introduced this song in my blog, but oh well..


Angela Aki - Tegami
She's actually half Japanese, half Italian. Which explains why she doesn't really look like a Japanese. =D

Changi

Changi is a very bad place I tell you. A very very bad place. 

Bought these chocs and another wallet from Tumi. With all the duty free prices and such, no wonder changi brings out the shopaholicness in everyone. I almost went mad when I went into Burberry. Too bad my parents were there, or else I would've bought some stuffs(or maybe it's a good thing they were there after all XD).

And let's not get started on the liquers! 

Changi is evil i tell you. And I'm in love with that place!

After 13 years..

I remember the first time I was on board of a plane, I was 7 years old. Sibu to Kuala Lumpur, via Malaysia Airlines. 

It was one of the most thrilling experience of my life. Since the flight was during sunset, the view across the horizon was amazing. And the view when we arrived at KL was spectacular. The lights, the skyscrapers, the night view of the city's skyline from the plane. 

Ever since then, I could not wait to travel to many more countries. 

During my trip to china, all my flights were on SQ. And I've got to say, Malaysia Airlines is still the best. 

Not that I have anything against Singapore (I ADORE changi), but then the service I get on SQ is just, not the same. I mean, it's good, no doubt. But then the cabin crews were kinda..uhm..hostile. The food was not that great, but the cocktails were amazing! LOL

Been with them since the ticketing days all the way to the ticketless eras. So, after 13 years, MAS still is my most favourite airline. Never failed me. Do you believe that even though I've flown so many times with MAS, not once were my flights ever delayed! Ha! 

And yes the meal is definitely nicer! hee!

And there's a reason why it has won more than 100 awards in the last 10 years! 

So yea, this post is mainly a tribute to malaysia airline. =) 

Airasia? hopeless. never will i ever be bothered to consider flying on airasia. a few bad experience and i'm through. =(

Lost.

I really don't know who to trust with my feelings and problems anymore.

Definitely not my family because they will judge.

Before this I'll usually have a few friends to talk to, but now that they are all in uni, I feel really awkward disrupting their activities with my problems. Some are busy with relationships, some are busy with books and studies, others are busy with their new friends. Eventually the group of friends who were always there to listen to my problems disappears. 

I find it hard to trust anyone anymore. Too many things have happened throughout my life that has taught me to never trust anyone unless they've earned it. 

Only a handful of people have access to this blog, and that's because I trust them with my thoughts and problems. I know they will not judge. I know they will not slander. 

So after a while, blog becomes my outlet to vent on whenever I have issues and problems. And yes I plan to keep it that way. 

If you find my posts boring, uneducated or just plain stupid, I suggest that you may leave. If you're willing to listen and give a comment or two, I'll thank you with my whole heart. Maybe even a hug the next time I see you XD

I am very confused right now.

You told me we're on limited budget when I suggested that I might need to buy something. Okay I accept.


But you brought us to China. Which is confusing.


But you said that's for everyone's good. Everyone came home happy..


...who said everyone was happy? Half of the time I was scolded and blamed for things I did on accident or things that I did not do on purpose. 


You still allow S to buy lots of stuff, even when he's not earning money and all the money comes from you..


..but everything I buy comes out from my own salary and pocket money. You never did gave me anymore pocket money but that I understand. You have a tight budget.


but WHAT i really don't understand is that why do you all ALWAYS side with S whenever he has an argument with me. ALL THE TIME. even when stuffs I say makes some sense and his' completely makes no sense. You all's point blank argument will go on until I am left speechless..


..does that satisfy you? Am I really that useless? Don't I mean something to anyone at all? 

eeeeeeeeeeverybody wants to be a critic.

Well, you loved criticizing whatever I wrote,

Whatever events that have happened, you’ll always have a thing or two to say.

Whenever I get upset YOU were also the one making fun of me..

 

I asked you to leave me alone, I asked you to leave this blog alone if you weren’t happy with what I wrote, you said, “I have my rights to read anything I want.”

 

Right. Fine.

 

You’ve done enough. Now it’s my turn.

 

Now you’ll never disturb me ever again. =D

hiatus

Sorry peeps, gonna leave this blog for a moment. Stuffs happened which made me realise that it's too dangerous to talk openly here anymore. This blog has gone too public.



I'll be back when the time is right.

guilty

Now I feel super guilty.


I was suppose to tutor one of my students this morning since he had asked for it yesterday night. But at the same time one of my besties wanted to have breakfast with me. So hence i told my students if he could just wait for me to maybe finish my breakfast then maybe we can still meet up and do our tutoring.

And so after I've finished my breakfast, I texted him, as promised. But then there were no replies from him. One text, two texts,....three texts after, still no reply!!

Did he waited for too long and hence got upset or is he just busy? I would like to say busy but seems like he's busy for a really long time!

Guilty! Guilty as charged! Off with yer head! 

self confidence?

No idea what drove me to write about this post, but anyway, as mentioned above, I've decided to talk about self confidence today! 

To be honest, I do not think I have a high self-confidence level. To be honest, I don't think I have self-confidence at all. Hahah I guess I don't think I have any acheivements to be proud off. I mean like, growing up, I was constantly compared to my brother. He was the hardworking and bright student whereas I was the weak and lazy student. So I constantly get stuff like, "Why are you so lazy?" or "Why did you get such poor results? If only you have studied harder!". I guess that's where my confidence level started to drop. Since I was always weaker in my studies compared to my bro, I started believing that maybe I can only be second best my entire life. Not to mention my brother was already good looking ever since young and, well, I was short, fat and ugly. 

Then during my secondary school years, there were a few occasion that really struck me hard. I remember I was always kinda bad in my mathematics especially during my lower secondary years. So there was once where I almost failed my maths and that's when my dad scolded me the worst. I could actually feel his disappointment in the tone he was using. I was really heartbroken that time. I thought, why am I so terrible? How could I have let him down so much? And this was not just once, but a few times as well. And considering my siblings were all good in maths so this kinda made me upset even more. I guess this is when my confidence level started dropping. I was thinking, everyone's at least good in something, some in studies, some in sports, others in co-curricular activities. How come I'm good in nothing? 

But then the first time I studied chemistry I was really happy because I finally found a subject which I can really learn and absorb well. I was really proud of myself at that very moment. That's when some people started asking me to tutor them chemistry and I would gladly accept because I thought it'll be great to help them out. Up till one day one of my friends came up to me asked me a question on chemistry and I could not answer it. to quote him, "oh you dont know this? I thought you were brilliant in chemistry! ah well, nvm then. everyone have their flaws" and yes that totally broke my heart. 

haha so i guess that's how i ended up feeling kinda crappy about myself. whenever anyone tells me that i'm good in something i'll tell them that there are other people way better than me. Even for my stpm results. Good? I don't think so because other people are getting 4As. What am I to be proud of? So yea, half of the time I can hardly believe in myself and most of the time I don't feel confident at all. and all of these goes on for so long that eventually you'll get attached to such emotions and it's really hard to get rid of them.

and yes, I am worried about medical school, after all those discouraging words by relatives and friends. 

p/s: do i write better posts when I'm emo? lol!

cuteness overload

I swear. This has to be the cutest thing I've seen this year. It's so cute I'm gonna die. Uhm, figuratively of course. XD

Anyway, I miss being a kid.

23 Random Facts.

This is just one of those "tag-games" where one person tags you and you'll have to do the game as well. Well, since I have all the time in this world now, I'll just play along! hahaha anyway these are just really random facts about me that I can think of right now. uhm, well, be bored! =D

1) I have the most tilted rib cage and bent backbone anyone has ever seen. Once I did an X-ray and the doctor was kinda shocked as to how bent my backbone was. Nope it's not straight down from the Atlas all the way to Coccygeal verterbrae. and my rib cage is kinda tilted, like the right side is slightly higher than the left side. So as to what the doctor said, these 2 causes me to hunch my back, a lot. so it gets kinda difficult if i keep a straight posture for a long period of time.

2) I wear a size 9 shoe? hahaha

3) I've been wearing spectacles since i was 12 years old and it has been anything but fun.

4) My all time favourite band is still Muse but then i'm currently addicted to The Script.

5) The few places I would really like to visit are LA, NYC, London, Paris, Bora Bora, Maldives, Stockholm, Iceland. =D

6) My most favourite subject in school would most probably be chemistry.

7) I was, am and still am single.

8) I try to look happy most of the time, even when I am not.

9) My most favourite time of the year is Christmas. I remember when I was young I'll usually be the one helping my mum decorate the christmas tree while my other siblings play. I don't know why but I was very willing to sacrifice my playtime just for that christmas tree. And now I'll be the one setting up the tree every year. =D

10) The only international places that I've been to are Singapore and Brunei Darusallam.

11) I was born on the 17th of December. I'm super happy with my birthdate since it in the holiday seasons..

12) ..but I've never had a birthday party with friends before because none wants to attend since they'll all be too busy travelling. hahahah

13) I feel most loved whenever someone spends time with me, not when they buy me stuff as how many of my friends think. I'll be so willing to drop whatever that I am doing and talk/meet a friend whenever they want.

14) I can be super shy when I'm meeting strangers or new people.

15) I am 185cm tall. =D

16) I love tea. Darjeeling, Chamomile, Earl Grey, Assam, English Breakfast and Afternoon, Chai, Japanese Ocha, white tea, black tea, yellow tea, you name it. =)

17) I always sleep with a blanket, no matter how warm the temperature is. And I'll need to hug a pillow. Without these 2 I will not be able to fall asleep.

18) I can speak mandarin but I cannot write nor read. Yes I can be classified as a real life living banana.

19) I hate conflicts. I used to have this really bad temper which usually ends up having everyone hating me but now I try to be super nice to everyone. I'll be paranoid if one day any of my friends get upset at me. I'll do whatever it takes to avoid arguments and fights with my friends. Sometimes I'll even be the one surrendering in an argument even tho it isn't my fault

20)  I have tons of nicknames, such as terry, terr, ren , renster, chiew, rence, tc, t, etc.

21) I am a neat freak. I'll go crazy if anyone digs their nose in public.

22) Because of point number 19, I am an easy victim for bullying. heh.

23) I dislike being in a crowd, because that's when I'll feel the loneliest.


well that was incredibly random.. LOL

whhaaa??

Remember "The Little Red Riding Hood?" The story that we've all heard and come to love when we were young??

WHAT in the world happened to that?? I don't recall it as being so gothic and horrifying.

done.

After 8 months, approximately 240 days and many classes after...


..my work is officially done.

Today was my last day of work. It was very sad, let me tell you. I'd never expected myself to feel this way to be honest. If you were to ask me few months ago if I was excited for this day, I would've happily answered yes...




..but now it seems otherwise. Really reluctant to go. 


As I punched out my card for the very last time, the reality finally sank in. I was really gonna leave this school. No more coming early in the morning. No more getting ready for classes. No more exercises to prepare. No more looking forward to meeting the students. 


I managed to not show too much emotion when I said my goodbyes to all my colleague, who were all once my teachers. I was still laughing and making jokes with them. But when packed up my stuff and started walking towards my car, that's when I started feeling really sad. I took a last look at the classes where I used to teach, the stairs I'll take every single time, the hall where we'll have our assembly every single time..


..I took a good look around the school.


I am going to miss this place. Never for the reason of work, but the memories. 


Started out as a naive student, knowing nothing...


...leaving as a teacher, full of memories.

5 hoover. Thank you for the amazing experience. Most teachers dread going to your class, but I look forward to meeting you guys everyday. You all are amazing people. Indirectly, we all became good friends.


5 jujur. Thank you as well. You all showed me that nothing is impossible. You all were able to do anything. Thanks for all the laughter and joy. 


4 galileo. You all were the hardest to teach, in my opinion. Hyperactive and restless, instead, you all managed to teach me the meaning of patience and perseverance. It wasn't easy, but it was worth it. With that, I thank you as well. 


and to 4 newton, 5 newton and all the other classes. even though our time together was short, but it was fun while it lasted. =) thank you as well..


Till we meet again. 

it's the most wonderful time of the year..

You know what I look forward to every year??


The time when Yahoo! Music starts playing Christmas songs!!! That's when you know Christmas is near..



Today while I was turning on my Yahoo! Music player...

"Clicks on genre.."

"..browsing through genre.."

"*spots something* O.O ... is that WHAT I THINK IT IS???"

"Holiday genre - Play Holiday Pop"


"!!!!!!!WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!"


yes i truly adore christmas. =)